Have you ever had one of those blissful moments, when you are so carefree, the wind is blowing in your hair, you have the biggest smile on your face, and you can’t help but think how much you just love life?
Then you suddenly realize that there’s a little voice in the back of your head nagging at you the words, “Don’t be too happy, you know it’s not going to last.”
Your whole being comes to a halt and you feel like you just got hit by a freight train. Yeah, that’s been me, except that I have finally learned to jump on the train and ride it.
There I was driving, singing It’s a Beautiful Day by U2 at the top of my lungs, and feeling extremely blissful! Things were starting to flow again in my life (there’s always an ebb and flow to everything) and I was just feeling on top of the world.
Then came that nagging voice, reminding me that this feeling, the flow, the blissfulness won’t last and telling me that I was being a bit arrogant for displaying such state of joy. How dare I feel so happy! After all, the higher you go, the greater the fall. Ouch!
That’s when I had the awareness…
Somewhere in my life I had bought into the belief that nothing good ever lasts, and that truly enjoying every last drop of that momentary state of bliss, joy, and happiness was simply reckless and irresponsible; after all, when it all went away I would be left feeling like a fool for believing that that level of happiness is even possible.
Perhaps there was even more to this…
Deep down the belief that nothing good ever lasts had more to do with my belief about my self-worth than whether something lasts or doesn’t last. Perhaps I had believed that I wasn’t good enough to have that kind of happiness and joy in my life. Perhaps I believed that being this happy meant that I would have to pay with unhappiness later on.
That’s when the shift happened…
As I sat there analyzing all these thoughts, I realized that it was really a choice. I could choose to savor each morsel of this energy that was flowing through me and around me, therefore, expanding my own life energy and contributing to the expansion of the positive energy on the planet (have you noticed how smiling is contagious?), or I could choose to believe that I needed to guard myself from this amazing, blissful energy just in case the other shoe dropped. I chose to continue singing from the top of my lungs and BE with happiness, joy, and bliss.
Here’s the thing…
We all experience ups and downs in life. It’s what I call the ebb and flow. It’s just part of human nature to live in this duality. And when we can choose to BE with whatever is showing up in our lives without any fear of the other shoe dropping, can we absolutely ENJOY every aspect of our lives – the challenges and the victories.
When we are being challenged, we can be hopeful that we will overcome it and we will experience the state of joy and happiness that comes from winning. When we are in the state of pure bliss and joy, we can be certain that sooner or later challenges will arise. And in the end, it’s all part of life.
The key is to ENJOY and be PRESENT and CELEBRATE and know that you (and me) deserve good in all ways – happiness, blissfulness, and joy even when they come wrapped in sandpaper.
And by the way, even if the other shoe drops, know that you can always put it back on.
It’s a beautiful day. Don’t let it get away…